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Well, I'm back. I have survived the almost first month of school. It's not so bad, because I have great teachers-but pretty tough classes for a person my grade/age. Don't have many friends (from last year) in any classes, cause they're all sophomores who don't take Honors Physics and PreCalc like me. I took their classes last year, so I sit at the lunch table and listen to my problems from last year. Oh the luck. Chinese 5 doesn't help. Most sophs are in Chinese 3, because I skipped a year. The Juniors I share classes with don't like me that much because, I'm a sophomore. The sophomores don't like me because I'm always with Juniors! There is no even place. I'll get used to it. Guys who I don't know from last year don't talk to me. With all the other girls in the classes I guess it makes sense. I dress fashionably, but that requires not wearing super short shorts and deeeeeep cut v-necks. I like to feel good, but it's hard when you don't ever get a second glance. I don't wear any makeup, compared to those girls-who wear foundation, cover-up, mascara, eyeliner, eyeshadow, lipstick/lipgloss and whatnot. What happened to good old chapstick? The guys sitting near me will go to the extent to lean all the way over and ask a simple question like "What's the date?" to the girls giggling next to me. I don't giggle. I don't flirt. I don't consider myself ugly, other than my acne (typical teen years) and pair of braces on my teeth. Perhaps I would flirt, or giggle, or wear makeup if I felt that the guy was worth it and wouldn't try and convince me to do something I wasn't comfortable with, or call me "passive." Then complain on the internet after being all lovey-dovey during the day. As someone did to me very recently. A good friend of mine was very right, I will definitely wait until college to get into a serious relationship. For now, I'll deal with reading about cute couples and seeing a guy do anything for his girl and not complain every day to make her cry. Everything I say here (and more) is from past experience--bad experience. On a happier note, I decided to change my background. Black to too dark for my bubbly personality. And my favorite color is greeen. YAY. I got 100 on my first AP World test, and a 90 in Physics. Pretty excited. I have a Chinese test tomorrow, and that makes me kind of nervous. I have no idea how hard the teacher grades, or what the test format is like. Last year I did decently. Oh well. Wait and see. I'm also part of my Church's choir! It's so fun, and I'm a soprano. :D I really do love singing. On the mind of music, my music teacher assigned section numbers-a freshman got put in 1 and I stayed in 2! I'm just like.. argh! I would like to move up. But I decided to work up to it, and not just be like "I'm a freshman, I'm going to go and take the one spot in 1st clarinets!" There are so many 1sts already! And three of the nine SUCK SO BADLY. And yet the teacher is just like, nope, Natalie, you can stay in the back and I'll just let these losers get the gold and glory. I sound like Cortez. Well. Until next time. :) I've always felt comfortable on this blog, because thinking, I don't show it off on any websites, so why would anyone read it? But if you are reading this, I thank you for taking the time. ~Tip of the post: If you love/like/care for a girl.. let her know. And broaden your interests. Don't just search through the sluts and popular-white-teeth-short-skirt group. Please. I have so many beautiful, single girls that any self-respecting guy would kill for.. but those don't exist at my school. My friends come first.